first off I'm surprised I remembered:
1. how to get here
2. the password
shocking
anyway I'm ready to drop a full volume of writing...as soon as I get a chance to write it out.
I got so much on my mind right now, if only I could express it
and it would help if I could tell those around me so this burden is lessened
I guess I'll take this as a lesson learned...if only I knew the cure
something funny, as much as I wanna write, I can't seem to get a passing grade on the papers I do in my english class...? So damn backwards...
I been getting numbers like the lottery from different females...if only I could get my Brad Lidge on and close the game...seal the deal, didn't see that as a problem before haha.
my brother went to the army...I see you boy, I never told you I look up to you with damn near everything I do. I don't see you often and we don't talk as much as we should on my part, you keep us together, and I'm sorry it's like that but I don't quite know how to fix it.
This is my last quarter at Sinclair, now my expenses triple when I get to Wright State...YAY, and I'm intimidated by the thought of diving into my upper-level courses for Accounting/Finance, Accounting 307? Shit just sounds hard, who takes Accounting 307?
I need to clean up around here, maybe organizing the area I live in will help me organize my mind, OR maybe I'll just be an organized mess...either way it's better than a messy mess, but it's not that messy...?
on the low, I think I'm facing some mini-depression type something or another...but the thought of near failure is what makes me shine so I take it with pride.
"difficult takes a day, impossible takes a week", this is only the 3rd day, in 4 days I'll be walking on water.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Friday, August 1, 2008
L's... :-|
I stay taking L's it seems...been a horrible couple of weeks(just had to overshadow my birthday too)
let's see, what I can remember:
-bombed a calc test
-got approached by a random ugly chick that I let trick me into getting my number...I never took so many L's at once with this situation in my life
-fucked up repeatedly at work, daily.
-phone was messing up and I took the L on a canceled date as a result...
...because of that canceled date I went to this nearby outlet mall...got lost going to...and leaving from that bitch
-went to the zoo last sunday...because I held us up a few minutes leaving I caused us to get stuck right behind stopped traffic because a RV caught fire
-on the way back from that trip we stopped at outback to eat...me, mom and my cousin just decided to get burgers...my stomach was fucked all up and we had to make a stop only twice on the way home because I tried to tough out the hour long ride...but the pain was crazy...they were fine.
-I dropped my mp3 player on campus and lost the memory card I had in there(micro sd card so you know how small those bitches are)...I thought my luck changed because I randomly decided to go back to the scene a few days later(a weekend had passed between this time) and found it...that bitch re-formatted my mp3 player and I lost all my music.
-I cut my own hair, and decided to cut it a couple days ago...well the new clippers I just bought shorted out on me in the middle of my haircut...figured I'd just use my old set and make it work the best I could...BUT the reason(partially anyway) I replaced them was the guard kept falling off randomly and I didn't wanna slip up while cutting my hair...well you can guess what the hell happened. Luckily I caught it right as it was falling off so the spot isn't too noticable, but the spot is there.
Oh, and my friend is going to school in Georgia, staying down there. Well she left early wednesday...I hadn't seen her really in I don't know how long because I stay busy(note the gap between my last post and this post, yet everything I could've posted about in between) so I was gonna chill with her tuesday night...busy days make for a tired man, I fell asleep before I even said bye or anything...and we had just talked about how I never really got to see her and she couldn't leave and blah blah blah...now I don't even know what to say to her since I missed her leaving. I fucked up.
That's most of everything I can think of, but I'm on the "what doesn't kill me can only make me stronger" tip right now, I'm gonna turn everything around, I feel it.
I guess I'll stop here, I'll post more tomorrow but I need to start working out again. I got runners' knee and damn near anything more than casually walking hurts my knee so I got a little sluggish and gained damn near 7 pounds over this L spree I had(thanks to going out to eat/fast food over most of those days and not being able to work out without pain)
let's see, what I can remember:
-bombed a calc test
-got approached by a random ugly chick that I let trick me into getting my number...I never took so many L's at once with this situation in my life
-fucked up repeatedly at work, daily.
-phone was messing up and I took the L on a canceled date as a result...
...because of that canceled date I went to this nearby outlet mall...got lost going to...and leaving from that bitch
-went to the zoo last sunday...because I held us up a few minutes leaving I caused us to get stuck right behind stopped traffic because a RV caught fire
-on the way back from that trip we stopped at outback to eat...me, mom and my cousin just decided to get burgers...my stomach was fucked all up and we had to make a stop only twice on the way home because I tried to tough out the hour long ride...but the pain was crazy...they were fine.
-I dropped my mp3 player on campus and lost the memory card I had in there(micro sd card so you know how small those bitches are)...I thought my luck changed because I randomly decided to go back to the scene a few days later(a weekend had passed between this time) and found it...that bitch re-formatted my mp3 player and I lost all my music.
-I cut my own hair, and decided to cut it a couple days ago...well the new clippers I just bought shorted out on me in the middle of my haircut...figured I'd just use my old set and make it work the best I could...BUT the reason(partially anyway) I replaced them was the guard kept falling off randomly and I didn't wanna slip up while cutting my hair...well you can guess what the hell happened. Luckily I caught it right as it was falling off so the spot isn't too noticable, but the spot is there.
Oh, and my friend is going to school in Georgia, staying down there. Well she left early wednesday...I hadn't seen her really in I don't know how long because I stay busy(note the gap between my last post and this post, yet everything I could've posted about in between) so I was gonna chill with her tuesday night...busy days make for a tired man, I fell asleep before I even said bye or anything...and we had just talked about how I never really got to see her and she couldn't leave and blah blah blah...now I don't even know what to say to her since I missed her leaving. I fucked up.
That's most of everything I can think of, but I'm on the "what doesn't kill me can only make me stronger" tip right now, I'm gonna turn everything around, I feel it.
I guess I'll stop here, I'll post more tomorrow but I need to start working out again. I got runners' knee and damn near anything more than casually walking hurts my knee so I got a little sluggish and gained damn near 7 pounds over this L spree I had(thanks to going out to eat/fast food over most of those days and not being able to work out without pain)
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Got a nigga talking to himself
because he fucked up with the girls...damn, my bad?
i'm shy and reserved, yet outgoing at times, bipolar? Who knows.
Anyway I don't believe all this shit females can cause. Drama when you got a girl, insanity when you don't, and a state of confusion regardless, and it seems all you're left with is a list of what was.
Why do we do it? How the hell does a fat ol ass in jeans, thick thighs in tight leggings, suckulant titties, a pretty face with a nice smile, beautiful eyes and done toes just take over the mind of a nigga and change the outlook they got on whatever they doing at the time? Maybe I'm just a sucker for love/lust, and what you don't have ends up what you desire most and need least, who knows?
Maybe I just put the pussy on a pedastal instead of taking it?
I know I'm too damn "nice" though, I hear it all the time, and don't even get me started on being "nice", one of the craziest ideas I've ever came across, bullshit if I ever heard it.
Maybe it's just a nigga like me that puts himself all the way out there, without putting anything on the table and it confuses girls? Girls say I'm cute so I got that going for me, and while I may fall short on the small talk, I normally say enough/the right thing to get myself out the situation, and I'm goofy/silly enough to keep a girl laughing naturally...yet I end up with many "friends" and no girl.
Just my luck I guess.
i'm shy and reserved, yet outgoing at times, bipolar? Who knows.
Anyway I don't believe all this shit females can cause. Drama when you got a girl, insanity when you don't, and a state of confusion regardless, and it seems all you're left with is a list of what was.
Why do we do it? How the hell does a fat ol ass in jeans, thick thighs in tight leggings, suckulant titties, a pretty face with a nice smile, beautiful eyes and done toes just take over the mind of a nigga and change the outlook they got on whatever they doing at the time? Maybe I'm just a sucker for love/lust, and what you don't have ends up what you desire most and need least, who knows?
Maybe I just put the pussy on a pedastal instead of taking it?
I know I'm too damn "nice" though, I hear it all the time, and don't even get me started on being "nice", one of the craziest ideas I've ever came across, bullshit if I ever heard it.
Maybe it's just a nigga like me that puts himself all the way out there, without putting anything on the table and it confuses girls? Girls say I'm cute so I got that going for me, and while I may fall short on the small talk, I normally say enough/the right thing to get myself out the situation, and I'm goofy/silly enough to keep a girl laughing naturally...yet I end up with many "friends" and no girl.
Just my luck I guess.
guess I'm about to put myself out there...
...for the world to see
to keep it all real with you, I think i'm crazy, nothing like I need to be in a mental institute or anything but I attack everything from another point of view that nobody sees. I don't know how or why I do it, and that may be why I stay so damn lost in everything I do until I finish whatever it is, but it's always an adventure with me when I gotta figure something out. I'm gonna keep this post short because I'm tired and I got one more thing to say, but as much as I bounce around in thought I'm sure there will be a part 2 to this.
to keep it all real with you, I think i'm crazy, nothing like I need to be in a mental institute or anything but I attack everything from another point of view that nobody sees. I don't know how or why I do it, and that may be why I stay so damn lost in everything I do until I finish whatever it is, but it's always an adventure with me when I gotta figure something out. I'm gonna keep this post short because I'm tired and I got one more thing to say, but as much as I bounce around in thought I'm sure there will be a part 2 to this.
about damn time I made one
I always got something to say...besides when I have nothing to say.
I keep a lot on my mind so stay around to see what I write...if I remember I have this blog, word to xanga.com
I keep a lot on my mind so stay around to see what I write...if I remember I have this blog, word to xanga.com
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